Feeling poorly about this blog long after deployment ended

I haven't posted here in a year and a half. We got past the ugly and after Ex died, we left it all behind. Except for the sad. We brought that back with us.

I came here to this blog today to see about deleting it. I couldn't even remember how to log-in.

Now that I'm here looking back, these last few posts are difficult to revisit. I don't want to dash the hopes and dreams of other caregivers. I don't want to go back there. But I don't want it to go away and be lost forever.

So, until I figure a more permanent way to memorialize my experiences, I suppose this blog will stay up, because even though my "deployment" as a caregiver is over, the sad remains.